Mormon 9:22

I wanted to start off with a blog post with a scripture that will sum up my post (although if you follow me on anywhere, you'll already know. I'm just gonna elaborate so feel free to skim to the end).

Mormon 9:22
   For behold, thus said Jesus Christ, the Son of God, unto his disciples who should tarry, yea, and also to all his disciples, in the hearing of the multitude: Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature;

I saw this scripture on an ornament that was for missionaries. Surprise I started my papers. Lots have happened during this semester. I've figured out I do need to serve a mission, I have great friends who are practically family to me, and I have a great boyfriend who is supportive of me serving (and he just got back from his mission to Ghana).

The realization of wether or not to serve can come easily or hard. It honestly depends on the person. I got my answer and then got blinded by the world and life and then I had a realization (or a slap to the head from one of my best friends) that I needed to go. Some answers come like a freight train, barreling at you at 60 miles per hour. Others may come like a turtle walking through peanut butter. God may let you choose which way you go. Either way, read your scriptures, say your prayers, go to the temple, read your patriarchal blessing. Figure out the answer by being worthy to received revelation concerning it.

After you get your answer, then comes Satan. Or sometimes he comes before. Satan is a sneaky booger. He'll get you before, during, and after. The week before I started my papers I was a huge brat. I'm extra thankful for having forgiving friends and people who will push back against my stubbornness.  Finally after an awful week, I realized it was Satan making me feel worse and then in turn, act worse. The main point is not to give up. Don't give up or give in. Keep fighting back. If you're supposed to serve, you must make it your goal to serve.

Getting to the point of starting your papers can be half the battle. Surround yourself with a good support system so you can feel confident about whatever you are doing in life, mission or not. Do the  things you're supposed to be doing and you'll get the blessings and help from heaven.

Also side note, I met Al Carraway on Tuesday and I adore her. I can't wait to read her book (and post a review if anyone is interested). (Picture from left to right: Me and Al Carraway, me and Emma (bestie) and Me and Courtney (bestie who hits me with common sense)). I hope you all have a safe and happy holiday season.

Love,
Janae

When Times Get Tough

So long time no blog eh? Yeah college is so busy, but I love it! It's so amazing up here. I definitely feel the Spirit more. Since being up here, I have had my fair share of trials. There have been numerous times where I feel like giving up. During one of those instances, I went onto Twitter and someone had tweeted a scripture reference (I honestly don't remember who, so sorry no shoutout today).

D&C 61:36-
And now, verily I say unto you, and what I say unto one I say unto all, be of good cheer, little children; for I am in your midst, and I have not forsaken you; 


I love this scripture so much! I read it and had a realization that I wasn't alone! I wasn't going through this hard time by myself. I did have someone who knew everything and could help me. I was loved! Sometimes other people on earth just don't cut it- don't get me wrong, I love my little friend group that I've made while being here. Sometimes you need a talk with the Man upstairs and then you feel everything fall into place. 

Have a little faith, say a prayer, and go forth with a smile on your face and a grateful heart. Focus on one thing at a time. Deep breaths and remember that God has a plan for you and it will all work out. Eat a cookie and read your scriptures. Life is meant to be enjoyed, not just endured. 

Love,
Janae

Surviving College Move In Weekend

This past weekend I moved into college! Honestly, it was stressful and emotional. I am a very self conscious person so moving into a place where I knew no one and I had never lived was hard. The night before I moved in and the next two, I had my breakdowns. I'm just thankful that my roommate didn't move in until today.

In high school, everyone had somebody. Whether it was a friend or a significant other, people were always walking and talking to at least one person. Yeah I had my friends in high school, but honestly I was somewhat of a loner. So coming to college and seeing it magnified by 20 made it hard. I felt pretty lonely the first couple days, but I found out, that's okay and you're not the only one to feel alone.

One thing I love about BYUI is that you'll see people walking around all the time by themselves. That's normal! Coming from a cliquey high school, I assumed you always had to walk with someone. Yeah, it's nice and convenient if you do happen to have a friend that you can walk with, but if not, don't sweat it. No one is staring at you. No one is analyzing how you walk or where you're going. They're too busy trying to figure out their own situation to worry about yours.

Along the same lines as previously mentioned, talk to people. I was walking back to my apartment after the broadcast tonight, alone. There was a huge group walking because we were all going to the same area. so I kinda blended myself in. A girl next to me smiled and introduced herself and we got talking. She was so sweet. We then parted ways, because she lives somewhere else, but it proved to me that people aren't going to bite your head off if you try to talk to them.

I got really blessed with amazing roommates. They're all so nice and calm. I don't feel like we'll have a lot of drama. Even if you are worried about roommates, relax, take deep breaths, and realize they are normal people too. My roommate is so chill. She doesn't really care if the door is open or shut or the blinds open or closed. If you do get stuck with a roommate that may be not your ideal, pray that you'll be able to get along with her. Ask to see her through Christ's eyes, rather than your own. Be friendly, be kind, be considerate. Work out disagreements that arise calmly and peacefully. If your roommate wants to be childish and yell and scream, be the bigger person.

Last little subtopic I wanna mention, is overcoming homesickness and loneliness. I struggled for two days with this. It actually wasn't until today that I finally felt genuinely happy about being here. I was such a momma's girl and so leaving her was hard. Although I was more worried about her being okay than me. This is where I bring in the Atonement. Christ felt everything you have and will ever feel. He felt my loneliness and that bitter feeling of almost bursting into tears. I prayed long and hard that He will help me and take them from me. Once I did that, I looked for the positive. My roommates don't hate me, I managed to watch a movie with some friends across the hall, church was amazing, and so on and so forth. Whenever you have a hard time, just remember to go to your Savior. 

So here's a summary for you:
1. It's normal to walk around by yourself. You don't have to have a friend with you 24/7.
2. Smile and talk to people. Be friendly. Many others are in the same situations as you are and are going through the same feelings.
3. Learn to have Christ be your best friend. He knows everything. He has felt everything. Lean on Him. Give Him your problems and then focus on the good.

Move in weekend is stressful and crazy. Take it one day at a time and everything will be alright. Also wish me luck because I start classes this week.

Love,
Janae

This is the Christ

(Song suggestions to listen to while reading: I Believe in Christ, This is the Christ, & Praise to the Man by Mormon Tabernacle Choir)

I wasn't planning on blogging about this, but I felt inspired to. I was reading in 3 Nephi 11 when Christ descends unto the people in the Americas. This chapter makes me bawl every time. There's a special spirit that comes down whenever I read, "Behold my Beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased, in whom I have glorified my name-hear ye him."

In all honesty, I envy the Nephites and the Jews that got to see Christ and His miracles. But I do envy the Nephites more, simply because of their faith. Christ's birth, death, and resurrection had been prophesied by prophets for hundreds of years prior. So to have faith that an event will happen long after you're dead, is unshakable to me.

Then there's the faith of the Nephites that live during Christ's life time. I don't know what the average age of a Nephite was, but I'm going to assume it was at least 70-90 years as average humans now. So those who saw the signs of His birth, saw the signs of His death as well. Now in the scriptures there were lots of nonbelievers who thought it was all merely coincidence, and there were lots of believers who began to believe those who didn't.

To those who continued to believe and as a result, were saved and got to see Christ's coming, their faith is faith I aspire to have. If you think about it, we're put into that same situation in a way. We know Christ came and died and was resurrected; there's history books that state of His birth and death (not the signs but that a figure named Jesus Christ did in fact live on earth). Now, we have modern day prophets that say that He will come again and the righteous will be saved. We have to believe that  that will happen. Whether it's in our life or not.

So to tie the scriptures back to modern day, we need to have Nephite faith. Nephite faith can be tied to pioneer faith. They had been taught what we are taught, but did they know if they would live to see Christ's second coming? Most figured they probably would not, yet they still endured their trials because they knew of the blessings. The blessings of living the gospel will come in this life and in the next, if we have Nephite and pioneer faith. 

Life is tough. Life is getting harder for Christians. "Doubt your doubts, before doubting your faith." Dare to stand alone. Dare to be a Mormon. This is the Christ and He is coming.


As a little heads up, I'm moving to college this week, so I'll try my best in getting blog posts scheduled ahead of time to post for you guys. Thanks for being such a great support. 😊
Love,
Janae

Beauty from Within

I have received quite a few comments about how my Instagram ins't full of selfies. Actually I'm positive my other posts outweigh the amount of selfies I have.  To test this, I went through and counted how many posts I had, that had myself in it. I got around 70 (I estimated since I might have missed some).

I am in no way saying that because someone posts a copious amount of selfies, that they are insecure. They may just happen to feel cute all the time. I was more shocked that the people who have said those comments to me, had a negative connotation. According to them, it's a bad thing to not have 200+ pictures of yourself. I take it as quite the opposite (and I consider my Instagram a picture blog of sorts of my life).

I know I am beautiful. I don't need likes, retweets, or comments to tell me that. I don't need other people's approval of me. I know I am talented and loved. I know I have wonderful gifts as a daughter of God. I know my friends like me for who I am, not what I look like or what I possess. I am much more concerned about developing my talents and personality than hoping other people think that my "eyebrows are on fleek" (what does that even mean?). I am more concerned that my Heavenly Father is happy with who I'm becoming than what I look like. To Him, I'm already beautiful. I am enough to Him. I understand this.

Have you gotten wrapped up in your outer appearance that you forgot that your personality is what really counts? Have you started to focus on your physical traits rather than your spiritual and personality traits? In a world where everything is skin deep, we have forgotten that looks don't matter. Looks fade over time, but a kind personality never grows old. A genuine smile will never go out of style.

I have noticed that since I have disappeared off of Twitter, that I'm much happier. I don't have to worry about comparison, competition, and being enough. I remember the eternal truths: I am enough. God doesn't make mistakes. If you're not happy with some aspect of yourself that is not physically, work to change it for better. Each day is a new start. I have a goal to go to bed each night having forgiven everyone who I have felt has wronged me in any way. It was hard to develop, but I am much happier and I sleep better at night because of it.

If you're living the gospel of Jesus Christ joyfully and striving to have Christlike attributes, you cannot fail. Don't shine so others can see you. Shine so through you, others can see Christ. I love you all so very much. Have a fabulous week my lovelies.

Love,
Janae

P.S. I may or may not have gone back to Twitter. Good luck finding me :)

Change of Plans

In the world today, you must have their whole life planned by the time you graduate high school. You must know what college you're going to attend, what you're majoring in, when you'll get married and where, how many kids you want and their pre-appointed birthdays, as well as when you'll retire and what color you want your beach house in the Caribbean to be. Sounds familiar right? It can be stressful thinking you have to have your whole life planned out before you're allowed to vote.

If you asked me a year ago where I would be in five years, I would have said that I would be an RM who was married to some wonderful guy that I met at BYUI while getting my degree in accounting. Now, if you ask me where I'll be in five years, I can honestly say I don't know. I have no clue. I don't think I'll be an RM. Maybe I'll be married? I probably will have a degree in something from somewhere.

I know that no matter where I am in five years, that as long as I'm doing what Heavenly Father wants for me, I'll be fine. He knows what's best for you! So if that means not going on a mission, then don't go. You gotta exercise your faith in the Man upstairs. He knows how everything will play out. I have gotten into the habit of asking Heavenly Father for His opinion on what I should do when it comes to life changing decisions. If I don't receive an answer, I go ahead in proceeding with what feels right. If it brings you closer to God, it cannot be bad.

Now there will be some decisions He'll leave up to you to make. Congrats He trusts you! I think it's both an honor and an annoyance. An honor because Heavenly Father trusts me to make a good decision and an annoyance because I always am afraid I'll make the wrong choice. You may feel how I'm feeling. You may yet to feel how I'm feeling. Either way, you have to have confidence in yourself. And if it's not right, Heavenly Father will always help you out.

"Be strong and of good courage; be not dismayed for the Lord thy God will help thee withersoever thou goest." Joshua 1:9

Love,

Janae

Life Update

For those who actually care about what's going on in my personal life, here's an overdue update. If you don't, I'll try to have another spiritual post up next week (spoiler alert: it might be about missions). Anyways, lets start back in May shall we?

So in May I graduated from High school and seminary. Fun times. I'm glad to be done but I will miss it. It certainly was an experience. I was so busy between work and graduation that I could barely breathe.

Then came June. Friends leaving on missions, missionary's birthdays, my own birthday took up the first three weeks. Then came a magnificent day. I got adopted! Yay! Finally 18 years later, I got myself a family.

 I also had the opportunity to be sealed to my parents in the Gilbert, Arizona temple. The spirit there was something like no other. I urge everyone to make it their goal to be temple worthy. After having been inside inside, I have the desire to go back and do anything to get there. Also I was so grateful that one of my sisters was able to come! She is such a sweetheart. :)

After that, I had a vacation to the Grand Canyon/Snowflake temple and then my wisdom teeth got removed. So naturally I didn't feel like doing anything. I could have blogged but I didn't. Although I have some good stuff saved in drafts right now. We'll see if it gets posted. Also feel free to comment below anything you want to see me write about!

Also I've decided to let you guys step into my personal lives. Follow me on Instagram and Twitter. If you dare that is. That's if you want more of me on a daily basis (warning: I can be a bit much to handle).  Anyways, I'll try to post end of this week or next weekend. Next week I'll be in San Diego with my best friend so hopefully I'll get around to posting on Friday or Saturday. I can't believe it's almost August! Where has the time gone?

-Janae