This past weekend I moved into college! Honestly, it was stressful and emotional. I am a very self conscious person so moving into a place where I knew no one and I had never lived was hard. The night before I moved in and the next two, I had my breakdowns. I'm just thankful that my roommate didn't move in until today.
In high school, everyone had somebody. Whether it was a friend or a significant other, people were always walking and talking to at least one person. Yeah I had my friends in high school, but honestly I was somewhat of a loner. So coming to college and seeing it magnified by 20 made it hard. I felt pretty lonely the first couple days, but I found out, that's okay and you're not the only one to feel alone.
One thing I love about BYUI is that you'll see people walking around all the time by themselves. That's normal! Coming from a cliquey high school, I assumed you always had to walk with someone. Yeah, it's nice and convenient if you do happen to have a friend that you can walk with, but if not, don't sweat it. No one is staring at you. No one is analyzing how you walk or where you're going. They're too busy trying to figure out their own situation to worry about yours.
Along the same lines as previously mentioned, talk to people. I was walking back to my apartment after the broadcast tonight, alone. There was a huge group walking because we were all going to the same area. so I kinda blended myself in. A girl next to me smiled and introduced herself and we got talking. She was so sweet. We then parted ways, because she lives somewhere else, but it proved to me that people aren't going to bite your head off if you try to talk to them.
I got really blessed with amazing roommates. They're all so nice and calm. I don't feel like we'll have a lot of drama. Even if you are worried about roommates, relax, take deep breaths, and realize they are normal people too. My roommate is so chill. She doesn't really care if the door is open or shut or the blinds open or closed. If you do get stuck with a roommate that may be not your ideal, pray that you'll be able to get along with her. Ask to see her through Christ's eyes, rather than your own. Be friendly, be kind, be considerate. Work out disagreements that arise calmly and peacefully. If your roommate wants to be childish and yell and scream, be the bigger person.
Last little subtopic I wanna mention, is overcoming homesickness and loneliness. I struggled for two days with this. It actually wasn't until today that I finally felt genuinely happy about being here. I was such a momma's girl and so leaving her was hard. Although I was more worried about her being okay than me. This is where I bring in the Atonement. Christ felt everything you have and will ever feel. He felt my loneliness and that bitter feeling of almost bursting into tears. I prayed long and hard that He will help me and take them from me. Once I did that, I looked for the positive. My roommates don't hate me, I managed to watch a movie with some friends across the hall, church was amazing, and so on and so forth. Whenever you have a hard time, just remember to go to your Savior.
So here's a summary for you:
1. It's normal to walk around by yourself. You don't have to have a friend with you 24/7.
2. Smile and talk to people. Be friendly. Many others are in the same situations as you are and are going through the same feelings.
3. Learn to have Christ be your best friend. He knows everything. He has felt everything. Lean on Him. Give Him your problems and then focus on the good.
Move in weekend is stressful and crazy. Take it one day at a time and everything will be alright. Also wish me luck because I start classes this week.
Love,
Janae
No comments:
Post a Comment